Guilt in Maus

In Maus, Art Spiegelman has to endure many different types of guilt; survivor's guilt, the guilt of Anja’s suicide, and the guilt of never truly being able to create a novel great enough to remember all of the victims of the holocaust. He copes with this by creating his novel, keeping himself busy, but ignoring the shame only makes it worse for him. On page 44, Art Spiegelman addresses his feelings of guilt with his therapist. The therapist blames Vladek for being the source of Art’s guilt even saying that Art is the “real” survivor. Art Spiegelman draws himself getting smaller and smaller to represent how the weight of his guilt literally makes him feel like nothing. This scene clearly depicts the true feelings of guilt, from Art’s shrinking size, his posture, and the dark shading of his surroundings.

I had never really thought of what “survivor's guilt” meant before reading Maus. It was really interesting to see how the Spiegelman family all dealt differently with their traumatic past. Vladek took his anger out on his second wife, Anja took her own life, and Art wrote a graphic novel. I never  thought that writing a mere comic book could have such a great impact on one’s mental health. In a way, Maus is therapeutic to Art because he has to face his family’s past, to truly understand his own identity.

Everyone has to do endure somewhat of the same guilt that Art has to learn to deal with too. Whether a family member dies, or you tell just a small lie to your parents, your thoughts are swarmed with, “what if’s?” The guilt of your actions shouldn’t define you, but just like Art, you have to confront your past in order to move on and live your life.

What happens to peoples’ identities when they are not considered citizens in their own country?

When people aren’t considered citizens in their own country, they are looked upon by others as enemies. They are also referred to as a whole, being stripped of any individualistic qualities they have left. In the holocaust, this means they anyone with a star on their jacket was a “Jew,” as if that three letter word described everything about them. Eventually, they became just a number that was tattooed on their arm and one of the millions of striped uniforms.

On page 83 of volume one, Art Spiegelman sketched the dead mice as the main focus of the whole page. Also, he makes the Star of David really stand out in contrast to their dark uniforms. His purpose was to show that to the Nazis, their religion was all that mattered. They even referred to their deaths as “examples.” The fact that people were killed for a mere example makes my heart drop.

The same thing is happening in the US, but on a somewhat smaller scale. During Amer Zahr TED talk, he talks about how the term, “terrorist,” is used to describe someone who is Arab and how the words, “depressed,” or “mentally ill,” refer to caucasians. His talk really made me think how even our government, our news, and our leaders are degrading other races without even considering other terms. Isn’t the United States supposed to be the “melting pot?” Aren’t we as Americans supposed to embrace other cultures? Instead, we tend to think if someone isn’t necessarily white then they aren’t American. This issue will not resolve until everyone understands that no matter what, race, religion, or sexuality, we are all American. Diversity is what makes America beautiful.

Feminism in My Life

Even though “Feminism for Everybody” is over 15 years old, Belle Hooks reveals a universal truth that still hold true to today’s feminist movement, “... women could not band together to further feminism without confronting our sexist thinking. Sisterhood could not be powerful as long as women were competitively at war with one another” (Hook 3.)

I agree completely with what Bell Hooks is saying. Not only are harsh words degrading to your own reputation, but speaking out about others can affect how others think of your friends as well. It’s our obligation as females to support one another instead of putting down each other down all the time.

Just this week, I played a football game with thirty five other girls in my grade. When we were out on that field, we forgot about all the unnecessary drama and gossip that happened before the game. We played for each other. We cheered for each other. We left everything we had on the field. When we came together, the outcome was amazing. We were the first juniors in years to beat the seniors. This is the perfect example of how girls must put the past behind us to form a “sisterhood.”

While reading “Feminism for Everybody,” I never thought that her ideals could be applied to me, especially the same day as reading it. Her words and this experience taught me that you accomplish anything with the support of others. Also, that feminist values can be found in everyday life.

The Relatable Struggle That is Life

David Foster Wallace is the Taylor Swift of literature. Both of them write about situations that just about everyone can relate to.

See? Relatable.

What I’m trying to say is that Wallace’s piece, “This is Water,” was definitely my favorite that we have read so far. For example,Wallace wrote, “It is extremely difficult to stay alert and attentive instead of getting hypnotized by the constant monologue in your head” (Wallace 234.) We are all guilty of zoning out in the middle of class, or totally forgetting that you had to walk the dog before your dad gets home (yup, just happened to me.) I think that it is so interesting that Wallace can write about something so obvious, so self-evident, and still get an overwhelming reaction from his audience.

On the other hand, I think that writing these kinds of pieces may have negatively impacted Wallace’s mental health. He definitely had a different way of thinking. He was a genius, but also analyzed everyday social situations a little too deeply. Of course, I think this piece is so compelling because he wrote about the common struggle (that isn't even really a struggle.) But now I also realize that it's dangerous to always be aware of your everyday obstacles. It seems like through Wallace’s words that living from day to day is a constant battle. When, sometimes, going to the supermarket isn’t THAT bad. Even if the line to the cashier is out through the door, at least I have food to eat. I’m not saying that we should roam through life like living zombies, but we should just take a deep breath, stop overthinking everything, and just live your life. Easier said than done, of course, but I’m pretty sure Taylor Swift would agree.

How are Minorities Portrayed in Today's Society?

Racial injustice in the US has come along way, but it is still a reoccurring and relevant issue today. Just walking through the lunchroom of Troy High, I tend to notice that different ethnic groups and genders always sit together. There is scientific evidence that we tend to gravitate towards people that have the same physical features as us.

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This social phenomenon is also portrayed in popular films and TV shows. For example, in Orange is the New Black, the separation is a reoccurring theme throughout every episode. The minorities in the jail tend to stick together, just like the scientific evidence concluded. In the TV show, every ethnic group has their own separate bathrooms and claimed territories of their jail. The show provides a lot of diversity in the jail, ranging from; african american, white, asian, and different sexualities. It is very interesting to see how all of these different personalities get along under the poor conditions they are in. These different races are forced to acknowledge each other when they are in such a confined space. Of course, this causes tensions to be high when they don’t see eye to eye. They have to learn to cope with their racial stereotypes while still trying to create a safe community with so much diversity.

Popular entertainment like Orange is the New Black, and The Lone Ranger have a huge impact on how society looks at race. Their influences force society to make a biased judgement on the treatment of minorities. In this particular series, the show pokes fun at the stereotypes society tends to joke about.

In these particular GIFs, white women are implying that other minorities are subordinate to their own race. Unfortunately, to some, these racist ideals apply to the “real world” today. It seems like almost every time I turn on the TV, the unnecessary violence of a white police officer against an african american is being debated or protested against. If you consciously notice it or not, the media has influenced us to create an unfair judgement about minorities in today’s society.

Mimicking Style of Writing

(O'Brien 55).

Lying there in the middle of the street, looking at my parents running towards me, I felt a sudden rush of panic come over me, as if I were drowning in fear. Chunks of my own life had flashed by. I saw a five-year-old girl dressed as a cheerleader trick or treating for the first time; an eight-year-old girl running and twirling around her backyard in her ballet shoes; and ten-year-old girl lacing up her basketball shoes for a big tryout. My whole life seems to rush through my thoughts and onto the bloody pavement, running away from me, everything I had ever wanted to be.

When mimicking O'Briens style of writing, I am talking about the time I was in a really bad bike crash when I was in the seventh grade. Today, I still have to deal with the not only physical effects of the accident, but the guilt that I carry over the amount of bills and anxiety I put my family through.

Although my bike crash barely compares to the devastating mental effects of war,  I felt like my life had flashed before my eyes and this certain event in my life has changed me forever, just like Tim O'Brien's emotional breakdown on the rainy river.

In this paragraph, Tim O'Brien's grammar and syntax help to develop the deeper meaning of what he is trying to convey. To show the overwhelming feeling of fear he uses multiple semi colons instead of making his different memories into complete sentences. This creates, what feels like, a never ending sentence that represents his life. When the reader reads this, they can't help but to feel bombarded with all of his memories as well.